But then came the next months, filled with applications, interviews, thanks but no thanks, a job that seemed sketchy, and finally a hire. I ended up getting my dream job, which I can not complain about! Yet having to wait to start my job, set me a state of limbo, lost between undergrad and 20 something stepping out into the world... and I hafta tell ya, it is not an easy place to be.
I was good at college. Like, really good at it. I had wonderful friends, amazing mentors, I had worked hard to get my degree and make an impact on a campus that had changed my life. UNC Wilmington, and the people I had met there, had helped to build me into a woman ready to face whats out there. Yet, what I found "out there" were my friends who were just as much in a state of in between as I was. We were all restless, broke, and confused. I had left college so sure of myself, but for a good while, I lost sight of it, as the days and weeks passed by and things never changed or challenged me.
Nothing in college, prepared me for this feeling,and I think when one invested so much in to their university experience, its difficult to not feel this way, even if its only for a short period of time. These past few months have made me realize that the one thing I was missing during this time was purpose. I went to work, I did my job, I came home, and I waited.
But now, my dream job is just within my grasp,only a month a way. I am finally beginning to have that feeling of being needed, of goals to achieve, and things to learn. I am so excited to start this new step in my life, with a fresh perspective. This period in limbo has made me appreciate how wonderful my undergraduate experience was, and it has made me cherish the people and time spent together even more... but I think I am ready to let go. It took me an entire extra year (half in school , half in limbo) .. but I am ready to take the next leap of faith, and I couldn't be more happy :)
